A dose of philo
It’s been an eventful week. Had gone for a week to Mumbai, in an attempt to combine work with fun, or was it the other way round?! Managed successfully too, when I look back at it. Work entailed attending a presentation skills workshop, seems inane at this age, but after having to sit through a video recording of myself doing a presentation, I changed my mind – it was a desperately required session! And it turned out to be fun too, a group of 11 of us. These kind of sessions usually make me muse over how human beings interact in various settings. It’s interesting how in just 2 days you can manage to connect on some level, need not be to any lasting effect, but connect nevertheless, to almost everybody in the group. How, many of us tend to be our own worst critics, sometimes to our own detriment. And how generous in praise and tolerant we can all be of others’ mistakes when there is no “pressure” on us. And if lucky enough, find people who also share your passion for certain beliefs/interests.
As for the fun part, things didn’t go as planned. Maybe the secret to fun is not to plan it or expect everybody else to share your enthusiasm. Met up with some old friends, met some who started as colleagues and became good friends instead, couldn’t spend enough time with some due to logistics issues that Bby throws up (or other reasons that I can’t delve into, for my own sanity!). Of course that’s a convenient excuse– we have all used it on occasion, unfortunately I also confess to the crime, and therefore now accept it from other people.
All in all, a good trip. Despite the realization that life and people can move on, and oh so dismayingly fast. A city and a life you spent 7 years in, can suddenly feel alien while at the same time achingly familiar. I go through that every time, and have become better at handling the emotions over time. The trip served to finally bid goodbye to one phase of life – may return to Bombay sometime, but that would be a new chapter, no turning back the pages. But then, (I comfort myself) for someone who has lived in various different cities, I have the advantage and the opportunity of being able to pick the good things the city has to offer which unconsciously stay with me always and am lucky to leave behind not-so-good aspects.
What are those, you might want to ask – I shall reveal. Sometime…
As for the fun part, things didn’t go as planned. Maybe the secret to fun is not to plan it or expect everybody else to share your enthusiasm. Met up with some old friends, met some who started as colleagues and became good friends instead, couldn’t spend enough time with some due to logistics issues that Bby throws up (or other reasons that I can’t delve into, for my own sanity!). Of course that’s a convenient excuse– we have all used it on occasion, unfortunately I also confess to the crime, and therefore now accept it from other people.
All in all, a good trip. Despite the realization that life and people can move on, and oh so dismayingly fast. A city and a life you spent 7 years in, can suddenly feel alien while at the same time achingly familiar. I go through that every time, and have become better at handling the emotions over time. The trip served to finally bid goodbye to one phase of life – may return to Bombay sometime, but that would be a new chapter, no turning back the pages. But then, (I comfort myself) for someone who has lived in various different cities, I have the advantage and the opportunity of being able to pick the good things the city has to offer which unconsciously stay with me always and am lucky to leave behind not-so-good aspects.
What are those, you might want to ask – I shall reveal. Sometime…

6 Comments:
At 6:44 AM,
SunnyBlueSky said…
very very interesting.....keep on blogging.....
At 5:32 PM,
Anonymous said…
My personal philosophy is "there's no going back". No matter if there are regrets, that's what I stick to.
At 7:25 AM,
sonal mathur said…
nice blog deepti!how much perfect we are in mking presentations, there is always more scope for creativity and innovation..n i cn make out..u just love mumbai n u miss it....!!
At 9:33 PM,
Vikash said…
You're probably right - I didn't really take your comment seriously enough. And therefore apologies are in order. The truth is, I'm blogging (isn't that what they call it?) for the first time and frankly, I find this exercise rather impersonal. Nonetheles, here goes:
As they say (or rather, as I say), the fun is in the journey, not in the destination, so also with a play. The rehearsals are always great fun - you meet new people with various temperaments and attitudes and have to deal with their eccentricities and idiosyncrasies from time to time. But rather than it becoming an irritant, one tends to accept them for what they are, simply because fundamentally we are all working for a common cause - the success of the play. Although each one, subconsciously or otherwise is also looking for their place in the sun! All in all, it becomes a source of enjoyment as well as a part of some memorable moments and memories.
The behind the scenes story is at the same time amusing and nerve wracking! From one hour (or more!) before the curtain goes up, everyone is shaking and shivering in the wings. Each one has his or her way of handling the tension - from chanting of shlokas to taking deep breaths or holding one's (or the co-actors') breath to fretting and fuming to saying prayers to repeatedly reading the script, and so on. Even I sweat and shake in the wings. But once I'm on stage I don't think it shows. When I'm in front of the audience I know I have the authority, the presence or whatever you may call it. I don't know whether its power or fame or a mixture of both. Actually it can't be fame because when I first got my standing ovation, nobody knew my name!
Of course, even when the play is underway, its never always smooth sailing. We've gone through our bits of gaffes and faux pas (We call it Passing the Fox - literal pronunciation! And sometimes it feels like it too!) There are times when actors forget their lines, even their entries and exits! KD once exited 2 whole pages before she was supposed to! And I'm sure she hasn't told you about it either! Well there's no retake in the theatre, so we just improvise and move on. Therein lies the fun, else how or why would you remember these moments!
I saw Omkara too and I thought it was an interesting piece of work. Brilliant camera work and lighting enhanced each actor's performance levels. The plot and politics of Othello very aptly fitted into the U.P. scenario and it was a thundering good adaptation as well. Having translated the play into a cinematic canvas, the director ensured that it still did not lose its dramtic significance. Iago, although the antagonist is for me, the real protagonist and hence it is no real surprise that Saif enacted that role to perfection, but I thought Konkana Sen was a revelation. Superb!
How was your trip to Bbay? KD tells me you've been threatening to come to Nagpur. Hope you keep up to it. At least we would be able to meet then. Until then we shall keep blogging away! All good wishes to you! Take care.
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